Struck me hard enough in the chest to make me think about sticking around

One of my managers made very complimentary statements about my work, which still quite honestly shocks the heck out of me. I don't think I'll ever get past the feeling that I'm a fraud, and that I don't really have the engineering acumen to be where I am. My close friends at my company know that I feel like a fraud, but they always assure me that I'm smart, but man, engineering, the nuts and bolts stuff barely penetrates. I just finished managing a program that was destined to fail if it had to go to completion, but because it was cancelled, instead of being the goat I feel like I should be, I'm being lauded for having accomplished so much with few resources and agonizingly long days.

I remember thinking long ago how truly this modern world does its best to award people for mediocrity, perhaps because people like being awarded even if they're not necessarily worthy of it. Anyway, I'm still planning to go back to engineering school. The fact is, even if most engineering topics don't interest me, I want to know what the heck I'm doing at work.

I'm not sure if going back to school will help that.